Alhamdullilah, 21st March :')

Today I woke up at 8.40 am, and headed straight to the shower. Iron my kurung and ran downstairs for breakfast. Butterflies in my tummy was like a gazillion one. Nothing could explain how I really felt.

Goodluck wishes flooding my head. People telling me to do this and that before taking my results. What did i do? Acted cool like a nigga would do....

Time after time, minutes after minutes. I felt like I was about to pass out. As we reached the school gate, my friends was already there. Asking me how am I as they haven't seen me for ages. I was quiet, cos I was wondering how would my results end up like?

Headmaster called us in. My class was the second to be called. Name after name, then suddenly "Nadiah Nadinah". I shivered. Took my seat and waited for everyone to walk into the school hall.

Headmaster gave us a little speech. Then he called out the names 'Pelajar Idola'. Too bad I was not one of them. Bummer. More butterflies in my tummy. I felt like I wanted to puke at that moment. I know, selekeh like hell.

Time after time. Then they set up tables. My class teacher told us to line up. And that moment, we took our results. I was the 5th person in line. Shit. Why did I have to be so fast in lining up? Excited? No way baby.

Other 4 got their results. Tears flooding their faces. Some did well. Some didn't. I'm next in line... Teacher gave me my certificates, then there it was... She was asking me question's about what did I do for the holidays and bla bla bla...

Then PANG! She took a look at my results first, then she passed it to me. I closed my eyes. And little by little I opened one by one. At that moment, I was thankful already. Alhamdullilah is all I can say right now :)

Before I could even get up, my friend's rush to me and snatch my results away. "Congrats" all around me. They hug and all. I felt blessed. I knew at that moment, what ever I studied did me well.

Nevermind if I don't get straight A's. But at least mummy and daddy is happy for me. That's all I always wanted. Amin. :)

Congrats to all my fellow '94 friends! To those that scored, Alhamdullilah! I'm happy for you guys. Sushi k after this? Hehehehehe. And to those who didn't, nevermind. Better luck next time? This is just the begging for everything, okay?

Much love,
Nadiah Nadinah.

Here's are some questions some people left in my inbox for me to answer:

Do you miss your pass? & did you regret he left you?

Missing is a part of everyone personal life. Its not wrong missing a person, eventhough he/she is our pass. Yes I miss him, as a friend. I miss talking to him when he was actually there. But as life goes on, people leave. And that "missing" just remains there ;) 

Regret him leaving me? Never. It was just not meant to be.

Do you want him back?

Want him back? Of coarse not. His happier now with his life. I would never want to ruin that. Besides, someday if Allah wrote that I was meant for him, that I'll happen. But for now, the answer will be no :)

How's life without him? 

Alhamdullilah, good :) He teaches me so many through out the 10 months we we're together. With him around, I felt like I was on top of the world. & without him makes me own this world. So its good. I learned that to let go of things, don't hold on, don't look back and be strong with everything. Insya'allah as time passes by, heart heals. And you will be a better woman :)

Was it hard for you to move on? 

For the pass few months, yes it did. It was harder more because watching him fade away everyday when I wake up in the morning. Its been 7 months now he left me, and I'm good. No more do I think of crappy stuff. And I'm proudly saying, I'm a stronger woman now then 5 months back ;)

Do you have anyone else? And who is he?

Anyone else as a boyfriend, no. But someone that's truly special to me, yes. As time passes by, I'll let you know who he is. But for now, just not yet :) 

His a good guy. Someone that prepared me through everything. Someone I can have faith. Insya'allah if he is the one for me, then we will be something. Creating memories, cherish life together, and enjoy every moment with each other.

Thanks guys for the question. Leave more so that I can answer more! Lots of love. *hugs*